我明白了。

几天前的一个午觉醒来后，

梦里也忘了梦到什么，

但心情却开朗了好多。

可以对每个人都一视同仁，

心情会好处理得多。

可是在人海中，

原来也有些朋友，是可以花一辈子去守候的。

你就是那位。

 

我好了。

（放了毒药的泥土，草全都枯了；几个礼拜后，还是长出了草。草是死不了的。 ）

Peace. Calm.

This is so beautiful. The calm lake with the orange sunset, really make my day feel better. (Taken at Cyberpark yesterday, using my phone)

I am tired...

Really tired. Can't find motivation.

Feel like wanna lie down, just like the water tap in HB2. 

I am Consuming Government's property.

Damn, I am eating Malaysia Government's property (Hak Kerajaan Malaysia).

What happen to Malaysia... even bun also need to rate as government's property?

I got this from donating blood, funny.

Malaysia F1 GP, it's hot, but cool!

I used to be the one who don't like F1, because I don't like it to be call sport. Sport should be some activity or games that everyone can play, not only those selected drivers, with a million dollar super machine. I do agree that skill is important, but what they competing, is technology, that's what I thought. However, I do impressed by the technology.

Thanks to Aaron who invited me, with Ramesh and Soon Keat, so first time I stepped into Malaysia F1 Sepang Circuit. The event was a 3 days event, and crazically, we went for all 3 days.

Students from XX school visiting the circuit. 

The first day is actually practice session, and the entrance is FREE.

Posing with the Human Machine (this is just how I call it, so cool~).

Petronas invested in this Ski-Doo, something that impossible to use in Malaysia. Weird.

Ferrari Collection. I can just say, all merchandises are overrated. Luckily I am fan of neither one, hoohoo. Aaron bought 1 shirt, but sadly we said it looks like from Petaling Street.

Mercedes McLaren. One day I will own this... model car.

This is just part of the fever of F1. These peoples are not queuing for tickets or drinks, but for driver's autograph! The queue is at least 200 meters.믿어요! It's just the first day!

The first day was practice session, so the crowd is the least. We are freely to enter any seats to watch the show.

First session is GP2, here it is:

Top speed around 200km/h, oh... so so only. The engine noise is just slightly more than those Mat Rempit's bike.

And this is F1:

Top Speed around 310km/h on the track that I shot.The engine noise... WOWOWOW!!!!!

This is really pumping in Adrenaline into my blood! When the car passed by, I can feel my heart beat increase, and the excitement of the environment, is really really great. Now I understand why those Mat Salleh (foreigners) willing to spend thousands dollars just for a match!

Day 2: The Qualifying Day

This is the ticket looks like. Consider very lucky, I just paid for RM100, and got Grand Stand seat, worth RM500~ Sponsored ticket actually, by QuestNet.

Entering the circuit. Everyone will go through a bag check, to prevent visitors from bringing in water and food. If you want anything, buy in there with price 400 to 500% higher.

Aaron, Keat, and Ramesh, and the cameraman, me(see my shadow?)

"Thanks" for remind us, bullshit.

It was Aaron's idea to reach at 10am, just for an autograph session with Ferrari drivers. (He is really mad towards F1 Ferrari, when he talks about it, will feel so excited and jumping)

It's so hot.

"Where is Schumaker?", I asked.

That is very lame. Only that time I realized that guy already retired few years ago. I am seriously not F1 fan, and never watch F1, and know nothing about drivers etc. Just interested with the car.

So the latest Ferrari drivers are Kimi Räikkönen and Felipe Massa. Dumbly, we queued under the hot sun for 2 hours, from 10am to 12pm, and rewarded with Kimi's autograph and sunburn.

(I was the last one!! The people behind me has no chance to reach Ferrari~)

First time I saw Segway in Malaysia~ It is another cool vehicle that balance on 2 wheels arranged side by side and automatic balance itself.

Asked from the Salesgirl to try it, yea~!

Just lean forward, pull backward, and navigate left and right, easy~

The complex of Sepang Circuit.

My skin can be peeled off, layer by layer.

The race was at 5pm, so we went home at 1pm, and went back there at 4pm.

Ferrari is like Manchester United, the supporters and game results are so fixed and predictable... but no more. A new team, Brawn GP, has pwned all the others easily. It's qualifying match, not that excited, but the engine's sound has made me feel high.

wtf is this pic?

Proven I am the tallest among them.

 

Day 3

The race was at 5pm. We knew it will have a jam, so we departed at 3:30pm, but still caught in the jam for 1 hour.

This said: don't buy Proton. The girl was so nervous, jumping, while the men are so frustrated. Sorry guys.

The weather was cloudy, and forecasted will have a thunder rain. We reached there 30 minutes after the race started. Damn the traffic jam.

The current result when we are there.

See this corner, the car started to drift, means the road is getting wet. Rain is coming. 

The sky.... Finally, it rained.

Water being splashed up~ The race still going on initially. See the people at the hill there? Rain is nothing!

But the rain getting heavier, and was forced to terminate, the winner will be based on immediate result, which is this:

22 - Jenson Button (Brawn GP)
10 - Timo Glock (Toyota)
06 - Nick Heidfeld (BMW Sauber)
09 - Jarno Trulli (Toyota)
23 - Rubens Barrichello (Brawn GP)

Brawn GP rocks.

What you looking?

This guy definitely bought the wrong ticket. This is F1, not football, no Liverpool!!!!

After the race ended, so push the car back into the workshop.

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So this is my weekend, very happening, not to mention I still have 2 exam papers the next day.

Thanks Aaron for asking me to join the game, I have new perspective towards this 'sport'. Really impress that human can create such technology, and the most impressive, driven by human.

After 30 days...

Many people asked me what is the effect of eating vegetarian? I feel from myself, I am less tired, richer (vegetable is cheaper~), and my body weight dropped... This is not what I want! However, weight can be control even taking vegetarian, if the right food was consumed.

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刚开始是因为一时的心血来潮，而答应了自己，要吃30天的无肉餐。一开始，就要完成它。我吃的也不是100%的斋，只是不吃肉而已。

很多人问我，为什么要吃斋啊？我只是回答：刺激啊、好玩啊~要试试吗？其实呢，是给自己一个期限，乘着30天内，要让自己的感情伤痊愈的。30天后的今天，原来我还有努力和坚持的能力。

我不会再眷恋了，也明白了，原来当爱得很深时，要无端端地放弃是真的很辛苦的事。明明很关心很想念，但却不能表现出来；明明知道不可能了，也不能像之前那样亲密了。

挂念一个人最差的方式，就是你坐在她旁边，却知道你不能拥有她。

以为做不了恋人，可以做朋友；却在我努力想挽留朋友这个关系时，原来我是放不下的。或许，我真的怕了，我怕自己永远会放不下，怕自己会一直像个傻瓜，怕会给你添个压力，分开后还拼命挽留朋友关系，其实只是另一个爱的方式。

好多的希望，换来好多的失望，已经累积成绝望。既然你都不会可惜和珍惜我的努力和付出，我也不应该再为我们的感情感到可惜。

曾经以为我是最幸运的人，因为有个人能够让我觉得活着是有意义的；
能够一直努力和付出都不会累，因为知道努力的原因；
能够让我烦恼时说上一两句话就能让心情完全变好；
能够谈天谈上好长的时间都会有话题；
看到你有烦恼，会永远支持你；
看到你不开心，我也会和你一样的心情；
看不到你会紧张担心，看到你会安然放心；
看到你一个人时，会想要陪你,怕你寂寞；
和你分开时，会很舍不得你； 
和你一起旅行时拍的照片，你的笑容永远都那么可爱；
舍得花好长的时间做一件事，只要你能看到你笑，就满足了；
任何有意义的日子，都一定不会忘记发SMS给你；
收到或发出一个SMS或email都会开心一整天；
自认最了解你的人是我。 
还有好多。。。

现在这些都变成了我挥散不去的压力。

这两个月来，我失去的已经够多了。我最害怕的噩梦全部发生了。

爱情、友情、活着的意义、努力的原因、希望、自信心、一生最大的愿望、原则等等，人生中很多重要的因素，你能想到的我都失去了，现在我只想挽留自我。

这件事真的没有人错，所以也不会怪你或自己，就当着是倒霉吧。连分开都迁就着你，苯；把你当成活着的意义，苯；以为改变自己就能够打动你，苯；以为不停努力会有好结果，苯。

不会再期待了，不会再为了你努力了。如果我的举动伤害了你，只好在这里告诉你：对不起，你失去的不会比我多。只想要你记得，曾经有个男生真的真的很爱你，没有后悔。

 

 

 

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祝愚人节快乐。